I had a long conversation with my Uncle Virgil yesterday (my dad's youngest brother.)
I appreciate him immensely because he is the only Dizon man, outside my father, who is aware of all the dysfunction and f*ckery in our family and does not fake the funk. Good freaking God cuz everyone else does.
Gavin, at 14 years old, is exhibiting broken consciousness as he is mirroring what he saw with certain family members when he and his sister were displaced, being dragged from one Dizon home, to another Dizon home and the person dragging them around had zero plans for emotional and physical stability.
The modus operandi of the person dragging them around in this manner was to buy their love and affection with expensive things and experiences sans providing a proper HOME for them. This went on for nearly two years. To top it off, the enablers never owned up to their participatory role in this dysfunction and that is the hallmark Dizon dysfunction. Just get drunk and forget about it. Damn tired of this crap, fakery, fuckery, materialistic, and highly addictive lifestyles.
What I have learned to effectively do is see things as they are and to completely DETACH. In this situation, I pray, live as cleanly as possible, and let God teach my son how a real and responsible man handles himself. Because a real and responsible man would have had a proper plan to ensure emotional and physical stability, which unfortunately was not their experience.
This is what happens when a man does not fully grow up. There is no sense of discipline, no accountability, no responsibility and only an insatiable hunger for more materialism and materialistic experiences even if they have NO F/ING HOME. Good freakin grief. MAKARINEH !!!
What I am learning is to continue to live my truth and let people sleep in the beds they make for themselves. People will be who they choose to be and will have to look in the mirror and see if they are truly happy or not.
And THAT is none of my business.
