I first pray about my strategy, ask for forgiveness for my own transgressions that are known/unknown by me, and then I do the following:
1) Stand my grand
2) Make the ground I stand on is my truth
3) Choose the path that leads to the most peaceful outcome
4) Disengage with sincerity, humility, and understanding
5) Listen with my whole being
6) Strategize with love, not sales, and let God take charge
7) Go back to #1
Ali ku buri ing pamilia ku lupa la reng pera pera pera sikan sikan sikan.
Ing kataparan ku keng Dios ku pu at tatang ku pu alana keni pero ing lugud at protección nah neng Dios y Papa ku para kaku atchu ya parin 🙏🏽
Tratatu dakung ipas eku buri ita pu. Kabolgan ing malyari ngeni at sobrang matako la ngan keng sikan at pera. Makarine pu ini ala lang lugud, gracia, o respoto para kaku pu. Aláng alang nakung gana karela.
Ing Dios akakit nang eganagana 🙏🏽
I had a long conversation with my Uncle Virgil yesterday (my dad's youngest brother.)
I appreciate him immensely because he is the only Dizon man, outside my father, who is aware of all the dysfunction and f*ckery in our family and does not fake the funk. Good freaking God cuz everyone else does.
Gavin, at 14 years old, is exhibiting broken consciousness as he is mirroring what he saw with certain family members when he and his sister were displaced, being dragged from one Dizon home, to another Dizon home and the person dragging them around had zero plans for emotional and physical stability.
The modus operandi of the person dragging them around in this manner was to buy their love and affection with expensive things and experiences sans providing a proper HOME for them. This went on for nearly two years. To top it off, the enablers never owned up to their participatory role in this dysfunction and that is the hallmark Dizon dysfunction. Just get drunk and forget about it. Damn tired of this crap, fakery, fuckery, materialistic, and highly addictive lifestyles.
What I have learned to effectively do is see things as they are and to completely DETACH. In this situation, I pray, live as cleanly as possible, and let God teach my son how a real and responsible man handles himself. Because a real and responsible man would have had a proper plan to ensure emotional and physical stability, which unfortunately was not their experience.
This is what happens when a man does not fully grow up. There is no sense of discipline, no accountability, no responsibility and only an insatiable hunger for more materialism and materialistic experiences even if they have NO F/ING HOME. Good freakin grief. MAKARINEH !!!
What I am learning is to continue to live my truth and let people sleep in the beds they make for themselves. People will be who they choose to be and will have to look in the mirror and see if they are truly happy or not.
And THAT is none of my business.
There’s been this idea that’s highly effective in adapting new healthy habits by building upon consistent habits you already do, like the simple act of walking 🚶🏻♀️
I personally do this both on vacation and at home because it is so enjoyable, healthy, free, and allows for a sense of well being and accomplishment.
Like today. One of my goals is to get to a certain mileage. Instead of singly focusing on this, I made a point to get the mileage in while taking a nature walk to the grocery store.
I used my RunKeeper app to track my mileage and kept it on while I was selecting groceries which slowed down my time but the goal was not speed.
The advantage to doing this is plenty. Let’s stack em and count em: 📝
1) You get fresh air and get to be part of the local vibe 🌬️
2) You’re forced to plan ahead and stick to your list so you don’t overspend ✏️
3) Your nature walk simultaneously serves as something that would have been a “chore” 🌲
4) That nature walk was productive and practical at the same time 👩🏻🔬
5) Walking to the store teaches you patience, humility, an appreciation for the simple things and safety awareness 💗
6) You can take in the views as you walk and appreciate what’s right in front of you🤗
7) You toggle emotionally between the aesthetic and the practical which gives both a grounded and uplifted feeling 🌟
8) “Stacking” mindset can be applied in many applications if you think creatively and craft a plan accordingly 💾
9) Your executive functioning prowess will increase ✅
10) No one will have to tap you on the back to congratulate you because the dopamine and serotonin your body will create naturally will do that for you 💟
I hope these are plenty enough reasons to get stacking 📚🙌💓👍
Becoming a free, healthy, and emotionally disentangled woman is something I have been striving for since I decided to end an unhealthy marriage in 2021.
The dysfunction was so deep that I attracted someone who was as dysfunctional as me at 16 years of age and latched on to that unhealthy relationship that festered and never grew up.
In this season of Lent, I am grateful for my sound mind, free spirit, and strong body despite negative forces that did not want me to be where I am today which is stronger, healthier, and happier than I have ever been in my whole life.
Jesus literally picked me up, rebuilt me from the ground up, shook away dysfunctional behavior, and mindsets and set me free. This freedom is the kind that is rare, hard-won, and pure.
When I look back at the woman I used to be I cannot recognize her. The deep ancestral dysfunction was never fully addressed and when I took ownership of all of it, wrestled with it, and took it down, true healing took place. I was finally able to pour into myself in ways that dysfunction, toxicity, and materialism could never fill. What transpired was a closer relationship to God, wholesome ways of being, and daily fulfillment, filled with gratitude for everything I have.
Breaking free from my own internal shackles and ancestral dysfunction is something I pray for my children. I pray they learn that anything of real value, money cannot buy. Robust health, true freedom, internal peace, pure joy, and personal excellence are states of being that must be chosen, daily.
I am deeply grateful for my own successes in life and want my kids to know that a positive road map has already been built by their mother. To continue this positive trajectory, they must pray just as I did, seek God’s guidance just as I did, in order to receive discernment in all matters. God’s ways can be indecipherable to us so leaning on His understanding is what is required to truly be free, happy, and healthy in mind, body, and spirit.
My daily prayer is for my children to experience this freedom of mind/body/spirit now, in their teenage/young adult years. I want their battles to be of a higher trajectory that allow for higher states of embodiment and personal fulfillment, in all the areas of life that are important to them. I want their spiritual grounding to be as strong as mine or stronger. I want them to attract healthy relationships and experiences of all kinds. I want them to know that boundary setting is their right and their way of asserting their power. I want them to know what true love looks and feels like in all areas of their life. I want them to be unbuyable and not succumb to purely worldly wins unshielded by God’s approval. I want them to be as successful and victorious as they are willing to work for. This I pray, everyday, for my children, in Jesus’ name Amen.
In this season of Lent, I pray for freedom for all us. Freedom to receive and give love. Freedom from physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual ailments. Freedom from ancestral dysfunction, addiction, and maladaptive behaviors of all kind. May God bless us all and give us freedom, everyday. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
My kids don’t know 🤫 about this blog so I will post here lol 😂 (We’re a bunch of rockstars and are built a lil different 🎸) Enjoy🤗
I want to create a living legacy that is built on the foundation of my life: inner peace and strength.
Firstly, what is a legacy? A legacy is what you pass down to your children. This can be in the form of material or monetary goods, but what I am striving to create here is more valuable than that which is a conscious cultivation of my own personal values and positive ways of being in the world.
Secondly, I define cultivating inner peace as having a strong soul connection to God. It is from this direct connection that I draw from and graciously obtain “the peace that surpasses all understanding.”
Moreover, I define my soul as the part of me that is infinite, unbounded, free, and the purest part of myself because of my connection to God.
When I connect to my soul, I connect to God, and from that abundant and blessed place, I can feed my physical self, emotional self, mental self, and spiritual self.
And when all aspects of self are properly nourished, I can freely and whole heartedly give in the Earthly capacities I hold as: mother, daughter, business partner, co-worker, sibling, aunt, niece, friend, and fellow human.
My main goal is to cultivate rich and healthy relationships in these Earthly capacities as I have little interest in fickle and superficial connections unanchored by my personal core values.
Furthermore, I aim to serve within my Earthly capacities at the highest of my abilities by having a loving spirit, a strong body, and a sharp mind.
From there, I am free to go after my goals based on my heart’s desires and I always pray for the highest and best outcome for all.
This is my living legacy.
